Existential waiting room

Having a bit of a long day, started thinking about my work, which *touch wood* is going well at the moment, so i started thinking its almost like its working separately to me. So then i looked at existentialism on youtube and found this extremely cool video on Sartre, he talks about the ability to recognise the strangeness of life and life as we know it. Then he suggests that we use this to free ourselves, or rather recognise that we are free. This confused me slightly as whenever i've come into contact with existentialism, its always when somebody is having a breakdown about something. This is where all of the little threads of things we desperately hold onto get away from us and we feel as if we are losing control.

I'm thinking that today i've let the threads away from myself and i need to gather them again. My work is about life and living, engaging with your perception and your outside influences to make changes for a better future.

I'm thinking that maybe i could find a way of managing the areas of my perception that i go through regularly, like putting things down simply and working through them to make things easier for myself. This is going to be interesting and i think theres a possibility that i can make some major changes to my life, starting with what i have learnt through my practice. So i think i am currently in the middle ground, close to the middle, in the waiting room quite happily ready for the next step.